My Only Ghost

I'm in a field of sunflowers

Hoping that you'll call my name

Praying that you can catch up

I'm only at a walking pace

I keep turning back

to see if you're there

Even when I move forward

my heart feels like a heavy burden to bear

I'll carry this love with me always

You never leave my mind

Your soul is intertangled with mine

Do you hear my quiet prayer

before I sleep?

Is that why you always

met me in my dreams?

I don't want to be

on the same cycle—rinse, repeat

I don't need you

to feel complete

I want you to be with me

To witness your life up close

Not hoping things are well—

Is this truly the way it goes?

For you to forever haunt me,

my only ghost

There are a thousand things

I'd do differently

There are a million words

left unsaid

I replay your laugh

over and over in my head

I can accept

what I cannot change

But that will never stop me

from hoping—

You'll call out my name.