Until Love Finds Us Again

I saw the light you deemed worthless.

All the others before me ignored it—

That small, flickering flame desperate to be seen.

We were mirrors to each other's shadows:

Ugly, anxious, avoidant—

Threatening to swallow us whole.

You chose to live in fear

Because it was comfort.

It was what was safe to you.

You protected your heart at the cost of my own.

You didn’t make me stand there and wait—

I was the cause of my own misfortune:

Falling in love with the light you hid from the world.

All I wanted was to love you

With a depth and intensity

You weren’t ready for.

Forgive me—

For the ocean that was my love,

That made you feel as though you couldn’t breathe.

I forgave myself

For not seeing your shadow

That treated me so unkindly,

That discarded me like I was nothing.

You threw my heart in the trash,

Leaving me to clean it off.

At first, I was angry—

But now I’m just sad.

For you will forever be lost

To your running, to your fear.

And I will never again let you near.

I can’t even hold my love for you—

It’s too painful.

Love shouldn’t hurt.

It shouldn’t make me feel less than.

It was your fault for making me think

You could hold my love.

It was my fault for loving

The brief light I saw inside you.

Hurt people hurt people,

And we hurt each other all the same.

I wish you the courage

To flame the light inside you.

And I wish for myself

To find someone capable

Of holding my love.

This lesson has been one of the most painful—

But learning and growing is part of it all.

We broke our own hearts,

And now we mend

To never speak to each other again.

I know now—this really is the end.

May you find what you were seeking.

May I find my worth again.

Not all love ends in glory.

Sometimes,

It’s just a sorrowful farewell—

Until love finds us once again.